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[Dec. 24th, 2009|10:11 pm] |
christmas eve and I can not help missing him. Back in september i made the choice to cut him, one of my clossest friends out of my life forever. Its a long messy story but at the time he basicly gave me no choice but to do so (unless i wanted to forgo my princapals and walk around on egg shells whenever we are together)
now I am missing him like crazy, he was the person that could always make me laugh on my worst day the person I looked forward to spending time with every friday night or so.
I cant go back on my choice now. I dont even know if he wants to be back in my life again. Kinda unrelated but after our "breakup" I found out that when we were friends he saw one of my my best friends as his number one girl and did not see me nearly as important as he saw her. Even if i could how could I be friends with someone who saw me that way. Maybe im being childish but knowing the truth hurts.
Knowing all this its still hard knowing I can just facebook or call him like old times. Even if i was to let him back in my life i wold have to hurt by best friend. Long complicated story again, why do things have to be this wat. This year has been the worst for lossing friends, I hope 2010 is better.
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[Dec. 19th, 2009|08:48 pm] |
What is wrong with me, I have been wanting to be in a relationship forever. I have wanted for someone to be in love with me and I have it
so why am I still sad. I am not happy in the relationship in someways but am in others. I do now know if I should stay with him or call it quits. To be honest i am not sure if he realy loves me. We did the LD thing for 4 months and all he wanted to talk about was how much he missed me and sex. He never asked questions about my life. i just dont feel excited when i talk to him, to me that is important to a relationship. I am just scared that I will never find someing. I am not trying to be negitive but I know I am not that prety. Not that looks are everything but I have only had one other actual boyfiend and am 28, I just dont want to be alone my whole life. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2009|02:46 am] |
I went away to college for my freshman year (which was last year) and basically hated it. I made 2 great friends who I still visit there and keep in touch with, but now I'm attending community college and living at home again.
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[Dec. 17th, 2009|01:46 pm] |
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what do u do if you are telling the truth about something and the person just will not believe you... ands they say they will never talk to you again now because of it but u didnt even do anything wrong.. they just want to think you did... |
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[Dec. 15th, 2009|02:31 pm] |
Okay I really need some advice. I just joined this community because I feel like my friends are really biased on this issue and can't offer me rational advice.
To understand the question, I have to explain a lot, so I'll put it under a cut so as not to take up a lot of space...It is really long, but I hope someone will have time to read this and give me good advice, I truly need it.
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[Dec. 15th, 2009|03:23 pm] |
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my best friend has been acting completely crazy lately. ever since he got into college he's been acting strange. and i'm sure its all the pressure of being in college, etc., but there are people who handle it and not go completely crazy the way he is. this morning he told me that he failed one of his classes and he started going crazy saying he was going to kill himself/cut himself/punch himself in the face, etc. and i tried to calm him down and i tried to tell him that it would be okay but i seriously didn't know how to help him. it was really frustrating but i kept trying anyway because i've known him for 5 years and i really care about him. he's never been this way. and he's been dating this girl that his parents don't approve of and he isn't allowed to date her and they've found out three times that he's been hiding their relationship and they got really mad. and one of the times they were scolding him he punched himself in the face repeatedly and bruised like his whole cheek. i'm just not sure how to help him and i'm not sure what's making him go completely beserk. its also been like this not only since he started college but also since he's with his current girlfriend. i think he has an extremely unhealthy relationship with her and he's literally obsessed with her in a creepy way. does anyone know how i can help him? i'm really worried he's going to do stupid things. :$ |
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